Day 21 - think think think think...stop

~ windy, cloudy ~

Stayed inside all day...didn't do much...did some reading...jotted down ideas for thesis...played guitar...my fingers hurt so much...skin is actually starting to peel from my fingers...think i'll start spending my saturdays at the library...it'll give me something productive to do...I wonder if dorothy will pick me up for church tomorrow...maybe i should call her...but she's probably busy w/ her brother's wedding today...well if she doesn't show up then I'll just walk or take the bus, it doesn't seem too far on the map...hope it doesn't rain...should I ask mom & dad what they think about me moving back home first? what if they dont' want me to? yeah rite, mom will probably be jumping for joy...but what if I have crazy 8:00AM classes?! that would suck to have to wake up at 6 just to make it on time...hey, maybe if no one rents my apartment at finch, then i can live there! this tv in the basement is so annoying...it hardly works...what am i suppose to do? so bored... if I had a car, i would go out more...better still, if the weather was nicer, i would go out more! ... well either way, it's living at home or at my apartment...think that'll be better...it might be the last time all five of us (my family) will live under one roof...olga will get married and move out soon! hehe...and once I graduate and get a job, i'd like my own place...probably my apartment at finch...which hopefully will be next summer...wow, can you believe it?! I'm graduating soon...unless i go do my masters..hmmm...but a lot of people are working and still living at home, there's nothing wrong w/ living at home...but i dunno...once i start earning my own money, i'd like to have my own place, buy my own things...gosh that means cutting off the "daddy supply"!! well i've depended on him for money for so long..it's time to start holding my own...this all sounds so scary!...having to be all grown up...living on my own... having my own place...never really had that...wycik isn't really my own place...maybe I should get a part time job...but where will i find one to meet my schedule?...the pickel barrel downtown is always hiring...but will they be flexible? man, i wish i knew my schedule now...it would help solve so many problems! i wonder how spring conference is going? i love how my thoughts jump around... i guess when you've got nothing to do, all you do is think and think and think...constantly thinking of new things to think of...i think too much...and one thought always leads to another thought... better stop before i think of something else...